Boys Don't Cry

I just read a book I picked from the library a few days ago.

I can't. Okay? OMG. Just wow.

So it's called Boys Don't Cry by Malorie Blackman. And I just absolutely love it. Isn't it just amazing how something - someone - so little could change so many lives? Okay, I get that life as Dante knows it is over the moment  Melanie steps in carrying that baby. I mean, it does suck. Like, he'd worked his ass off to get that 4 A-Stars for his A-Levels and planned all those getting a steady job so he could pay off his student loan and going to university with a girl he actually cares about. Like, it's all gone after the baby came.

Personally I don't like Melanie's decision. Like, why the drop the bomb on Dante like that?? And perfect timing really because on the same day he's waiting for his results. But his daughter, little Emma.. I feel like she's such a miracle. I mean, Dante didn't want her, called her 'it' most of the time BUT HELL AFTER THAT HE JUST WOULDN'T LET ANYONE "take my daughter away from me". Isn't that just adorable? And he's 17. And Emma just changed him. 

And I can relate not in the same case, but you know, I changed too. Whilst Dante's inspiration is Emma, mine is Drew Chadwick. As in, Dante and I see the world differently now. I mean, he didn't appreciate all the hard work parents had to go through but now he does. I feel like I was there with him while he brought Emma up. And now she can speak and walk a little bit. And she loved Uncle Adam. Even though now he doesn't look as good as he looked before. I swear I cried and laughed and then cry again. 

The book and the writing and the emotions. I can't.

I love how it taught me to never let one moment slip without telling the people you love that you love them. Dante's dad told him he was proud, and I cried. When Emma kissed Adam's scarred face, I cried. When Dante told Emma that "I love you, Emma. I love you very, very much," I cried. When Dante and Adam told each other that they love one another, I cried. When Emma puked all over Adam, I laughed. So I cried more than I laugh but there were other laughable moments as well. 

All in all, I just love this book. Really. And I wish Melanie don't come back ever so Dante could take care of Emma until he no longer can. I seriously imagined what would happen when she turns 5, and then 10, 15 and so on. I hope she would be grateful towards her father. I mean, I cried just thinking about what if she did not appreciate him? He gave up uni for her. I love you, Dante. You amazing 17 year-old responsible-guy-that-are-rare-in-the-world. 

I love that family. I really do. <3