Inspire

There are so many things that made our society how it is today. The world is filled with people with judgments, people who are driven by hate. Honestly, when you hate someone who didn't give you any reason to, you are just simply wasting your own damn time. Even if they did give you all the reason in the world to hate them, you shouldn't. Life is too short to be wasting on hate and judging people. Nobody's perfect, and that means you too. So that means you have no right to judge how others live their lives. Sure, judge silently. That's your own loss of time. Before you speak, you have to remember that other people have feelings, because they are human, just like you. Your simple words could cripple someone emotionally. And for the people who aren't strong enough, they will give up and it's because of you. How can you live with knowing you were the cause of someone's sadness, misery and worst, the reason they took away their own lives?

And this goes out to those people who are being judged as well. Stay strong. Be yourself. It's hard to be when people judge you everywhere you go. But don't turn around and show them that what they said affected you. Turn around and flick them the finger, be proud because you are brave, and they are not. Show them that you are who you are, and no one will ever tell you off.

Spread love. Appreciate more. When someone loves you, you have to be grateful for it. Don't take him/her for granted, because there might not be another person as good as them. Don't live with regret. Live with experiences, adventures and fun. Cherish those that you do have, and thank those who have left because they made you stronger.

You need to just be, and you'll be a better person.

Another Heartfelt Confession

I know Drew probably won't see this again but I need to get it off of my chest.

I don't think it's possible for anyone to hate Drew Chadwick, not that I've witnessed any bashing/hate with my own eyes. But even if there are people who dislike him, it's only because he does good things. People get hate for doing the right stuff, right?

I'm not even gonna talk about possible hate (and the people who doesn't like him for his looks? I think.) My intention is to let you, Drew, know that you are very much loved. And I'm saying this on behalf of all the other proud Emblems.

We LOVE you. Personally, you've been such a help for me going through each day of my life even though you're probably unaware of it. I don't think you remember my last blog on how you inspired me to be better. But I wrote that with all my heart and sincerity. You saved me, sort of. And I used to hate myself for how I look and for what I don't have. But you changed that.

To say that it completely change my life would be putting it too much. It didn't literally change me, although it did make me better than I was the day before. Change takes time, I believe. And with you always encouraging, I know one day I will be much better. Sometimes, it takes something to happen that would leave a big impact in your life, to make you realize something. And usually that happens when it's too late. I feared that happening. So I keep trying everyday.

I have to thank you so much. I don't really know how to explain it, but thank you so, so much. It all started when I took interest in you and the band. I realized that you aren't just a group of talented people for our entertainment, but also people who have a great cause in your lives. Like you, someone who wants people to be better because you went through a phase when it was hard and you tell us that you made it through and that it has made you a better person. I appreciate you sharing with us your story, and it tells me that if you can survive it, I can too. So thank you.

I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way. The other Emblems as well as myself are so thankful to you and the boys.

And I want to tell you now that if you ever need anyone, all of us have your backs. And I want you to know that you are so loved, and I love you so much that sometimes I just cry because you're such a beautiful person. You really, really need to know that.

So, I hope if you get to read this, know that we Emblems are so proud of you guys and we love you so much. Our support for you is endless. We witnessed your climb, and we know you're going even higher.

Love,
Madarina (@DrewGandhi)

And of course, the awesome and amazing Emblems

Crying

Ok. So I can't handle it anymore. I've watched this scene for about 5 times and I still cry every time. I mean, it's not just that I ship them, but the ending was too beautiful I cannot handle the feels. And they both died at the same place/time/bed and holding hands. HOW CAN SOMEONE NOT CRY OVER THAT?

When Dhia finds out she has cancer was already really upsetting. And Nora Danish did a good job at it. My tears are almost dry watching this show. When she died and he kissed het forehead- I CANNOT HELP BUT BREAKDOWN. Then he laid beside her and passed on as well.

I can't. I needed to let it out. I've never cried this bad over a show. It was a good one though. Adi and Nora did great jobs. I love them. I mean, look

Boys Don't Cry

I just read a book I picked from the library a few days ago.

I can't. Okay? OMG. Just wow.

So it's called Boys Don't Cry by Malorie Blackman. And I just absolutely love it. Isn't it just amazing how something - someone - so little could change so many lives? Okay, I get that life as Dante knows it is over the moment  Melanie steps in carrying that baby. I mean, it does suck. Like, he'd worked his ass off to get that 4 A-Stars for his A-Levels and planned all those getting a steady job so he could pay off his student loan and going to university with a girl he actually cares about. Like, it's all gone after the baby came.

Personally I don't like Melanie's decision. Like, why the drop the bomb on Dante like that?? And perfect timing really because on the same day he's waiting for his results. But his daughter, little Emma.. I feel like she's such a miracle. I mean, Dante didn't want her, called her 'it' most of the time BUT HELL AFTER THAT HE JUST WOULDN'T LET ANYONE "take my daughter away from me". Isn't that just adorable? And he's 17. And Emma just changed him. 

And I can relate not in the same case, but you know, I changed too. Whilst Dante's inspiration is Emma, mine is Drew Chadwick. As in, Dante and I see the world differently now. I mean, he didn't appreciate all the hard work parents had to go through but now he does. I feel like I was there with him while he brought Emma up. And now she can speak and walk a little bit. And she loved Uncle Adam. Even though now he doesn't look as good as he looked before. I swear I cried and laughed and then cry again. 

The book and the writing and the emotions. I can't.

I love how it taught me to never let one moment slip without telling the people you love that you love them. Dante's dad told him he was proud, and I cried. When Emma kissed Adam's scarred face, I cried. When Dante told Emma that "I love you, Emma. I love you very, very much," I cried. When Dante and Adam told each other that they love one another, I cried. When Emma puked all over Adam, I laughed. So I cried more than I laugh but there were other laughable moments as well. 

All in all, I just love this book. Really. And I wish Melanie don't come back ever so Dante could take care of Emma until he no longer can. I seriously imagined what would happen when she turns 5, and then 10, 15 and so on. I hope she would be grateful towards her father. I mean, I cried just thinking about what if she did not appreciate him? He gave up uni for her. I love you, Dante. You amazing 17 year-old responsible-guy-that-are-rare-in-the-world. 

I love that family. I really do. <3

DREW, THANK YOU.

OKAY. So firstly, Drew probably wouldn't even see this because you know, he's got like 7545678x mentions per second. But I'm gonna keep up hope anyway. So don't judge. <3

AND, Drew, you probably don't even have the time to read this but if you do I am SO thankful that you took a few minutes of your time to.

Ok. Hi. :) 

Where do I even begin? I saw just one sentence the other day on my old school book. It says: 'Write about someone who inspires you.' And know what? I instantly thought of you. It may not be that much of a deal, but when something you do actually changes a person's life, it's just really amazing. 

I don't regret but I don't like what I did for the past 17 years of my life. I judge, I hate and I don't accept who I really was. Whenever I see someone I dislike merely because she/he has something I don't, or that they just annoy me, I hate on them. And I judge. I judge most of the time. I hate the girls in my school because they're pretty. I hate a lot. And now, thinking back, I almost regret it because hating is not worth my time. But I don't regret it because it was my past and I accepted it. Mistakes. 

But before that I saw your audition with the guys. And I became an instant fan. I mean, you guys are so talented. But later on I created twitter and found your accounts and started following you. And in those times I know of you guys to have good personalities. And good hearts. And funny. And especially you, Drew, seriously, if I'm not wrong you started #TeamInspire. At first, I was just interested because I just wanted to get noticed by you. I made that fan art and you replied me. YOU REPLIED ME. I couldn't sleep that night and I wanted to scream but my neighbors would sue me. 20th Oct. Forever remembered. 

From then on, though, I realized that it wasn't just about getting noticed. I saw your retweets and all those inspiring words people sent to you. And I decided that I want to change. I want to be as awesome as you are. I want to be inspiring. I want to inspire people like you do. And every morning I tell myself that I'm a part of the team and I doodle #TeamInspire on my notebooks during free times at school because it kept me smiling and pushed me to be stronger. This may sound huge, but it helped me survive my everyday. 

I actually stopped hating without even realizing it. I don't judge anymore. I ignored the girls who once I hated before. I wasn't a better person when I hate on them. I just stopped with negativity. And sometimes, I get a really bad week, but on the Sunday it was sunny and my stepfather was smiling and my mom was, as always, looking so happy that I thought to myself, this week was just another hard time, I survived it, I can survive next week. And I tell myself that everyday. I've never felt any happier. 

I know I'm only 17, and if God lets, my future might still be a long way to go and I'm aware that there will so many obstacles waiting for me as I go forward and chase my dreams. I will try as best as I can to be strong and face any problems in my way. And I tell you today, that I am almost positively sure that one day, you'll see my name on a cover of a book. And from then, I will continue to inspire people. And I want to help them like you helped me. 

And OMG I'm wasting your time now, aren't I? I'm sorry. I just really wanted to thank you for what you do. I never really paid attention to anyone with the same intention as you do but I paid attention to you (because you know, you're attractive and all that you're not only attractive but inspiring too) and that one night I just really couldn't sleep and thought things through. And I'm sure it's not only me. There so many other fans that you've really inspired. On my timeline I see them posting all the inspirational words and we're all like; 'Don't hate. Remember what the boys taught us.' The boys meaning you and Wes and Keaton and Kenny and Kyle, obvi.

SO THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR CHANGING ME. And I hope you're healthy now. I'm praying for Wes, Keats, Kenny and Kyle and your health and luck. May you succeed one day.

And I imagined once telling my children about how awesome you guys were and I hope that generation still know you and make you their inspiration. Because, really, you truly, amazingly, inspire people.

There's something I wanted to say but now I forgot because rumor has it you and Paige are dating. Hahahaha. Okay, ignore that. LOVE YOU.

I remember now. I want to get a tattoo that says #TeamInspire or 'Drew Chadwick Inspires Me' but my parents would be pissed. So much they would actually disown me. I might get one though, after I'm 18. <3 And one day when I get a follow from you, I swear I will shout out to the world. Thank you.

Okay, I'll stop bugging you now. But I'm glad I got to let it all out and I really, really hope you would read this. I'm talking crap it's midnight and I'm soo sorry. KBye.

P.S: Did I mention that I fell in love with Gandhi because of you? 

You must be the change you wish to see in the world. - Mahatma Gandhi

Love, 

Your No.1 fan/ Rina (@DrewGandhi/@EmblematixSG)

Introducing

Okay. Let me take a minute to breathe first.

OMG. YOU GUYS.

So I started watching XFactor the other day and I saw these guys~~~

So they're called Emblem3, the band consisting of Drew Chadwick, Wesley Stromberg, Keaton Stromberg, Kenny and Kyle Miner. At first when I saw them on TV, I was like; 'Okay, these guys have nice arms.' And then they got onstage and started singing and I just - EXPLODED. 

Okay, so first, they have amazing voices. Like, really amazing. And second, they actually wrote their own songs. Talk about pure originality. And they're hot, good-looking guys. Seriously, though, they have the whole package. And I don't care if they don't win XFactor. DID YOU GUYS KNOW THEY'RE ALREADY SO FAMOUS?!?! I'm sure they'll be huge. Bigger than anything. 

Honestly, I'm just speechless about these guys. They're awesome. Enough said. 

Insanity Strikes

Time's Ticking

Really, really fast. Like, earlier in the library, I checked in @ 10.35 and sat down to write and realized that five minutes past. Like, what?

So is it perfectly normal that I'm feeling a little slack two weeks into finals? I should be panicking, and a part of me is, but the other part of me felt like we're already free. Ugh. Not a good sign. 

I watched X-Factor earlier and saw Drew from Emblem 3 wearing shades. I'm a sucker for guys who wears shades and leather jackets. Like, they get so hot with sunglasses and those leather jacket. But when they're without them, some ordinary guy would be just that. Ordinary. But don't get me started on Robert Pattinson. 

Oh. My. God. 

I just watched Cosmopolis and turns out it was just like Bel Ami, only it's modern day. Some scenes I do not wish to watch twice. And I skipped a lot of scenes from the movie. I felt violated, even though RPattz was like, so hot. I don't understand the plot, because of my skipping habbits. But whatever, right? There was this scene where he shot his hand and it looked real and he looked like he was really in pain, with veins popping out on his forehead and stuff. Well, not literally, but yeah. 

I had like, two dreams of being SO close to Robert Pattinson of which a) I was kissing the corner of his lips, and running my fingers through his oh-so-soft hair and he looked so pained with all the bruises on his face and b) Rob was a prince and I had to marry him while my boyfriend was actually Edward Cullen. INSANE. But there was that part of the dream when I was on the bed with Rob, just sitting and talking and I started saying that I'm grateful for his support for my college and life, etc, and then I started crying and telling him that I'm not happy. Which felt like a lie. He. Pulled. Me. Into. His. Arms. He pulled me into his arms and I was bawling like a baby all over his shirt and he was telling me that I will be happy, that he was going to make me happy.

I fell in love with him all over again. *Dreamy sigh*

Dreams are as good as any. Since my chances of meeting him are slim to none. 

LOOK AT THIS MAN! 

When 8 November is up, and I'm free - OH YES I'LL BE FREE - I am going to be staring at his face and his eyes and his lips and SWOON. For every second.